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Sweet surprise!

Tuesday, May 14th, 2013

the past three mornings when I have watered my chinese lantern plant a little bird flies out. So this morning I took a look inside.

birdie eggs

thrills! A nest! They are about the size of jelly beans. 😀

Happy Mother’s Day to Mommas Everywhere

Sunday, May 12th, 2013


Delma Joy Temple: Bio Mom

Cecilia Ramirez: Mom

Mother in law: June Anders with her Momma, “Toots”

California weather

Saturday, April 6th, 2013

The back yard is looking green, with near 80 degree weather and intermittent showers everything is growing.

yard

this is what the yard looked liked before we moved in last year:
hgtv back yard view And then we graded it:

I think the grading somehow stimulated the weeds since its knee deep towards the back fence and sides. Ferocious weeds.

there is still much to do to get the property in shape but it will take time. I did get some peppers and tomatoes planted and want to get some artichoke plants.

I also took last years Halloween pumpkin and cut off the top, and put soil inside and watered leaving the seeds intact. Then later dh cut a circle from the bottom and planted the whole thing. I’m thinking the shell will naturally compost itself.

pumpkin I’m excited about it as I would love to grow a whole bunch of pumpkins and the vines are especially pretty and the blossoms edible.

Bucket List

Friday, April 5th, 2013

I wish I were in India for the Holi Festival of colors

This week in India is the Holi Festival of Colors. I WISH I were there!

Hol! Ha!

see more here and here

So good

Thinking out loud

Friday, April 5th, 2013

I felt oddly impacted by the death of Roger Ebert for whom I have been a long time fan. I follow him on twitter and his keen mind has illuminated many a different topic for me. But, mostly, I remember him from back in the days of “Siskel and Ebert” a show I watched every week. Roger was such a commanding wit. Today, most often, if I want to read a movie review I first go to Ebert’s website. I will miss his reviews of current movies and saddened by his loss.

Sometimes I feel such angst and jealousy by the accomplishments of other artists that I want to dive my head into the ground and stay there. Still, while I can understand angst, I despise jealousy/envy and mostly keep the green monsters beneath the bed where they belong. At the same time, I am so grateful for the brilliance and success of the truly talented. How banal life would be without those to admire and aspire to. Before the internet, one had to buy books or go to galleries and museums to see the work of others and now the myriad of images and artists at one’s fingertips is overwhelming and maybe that is where some of the angst comes from, there are so many accomplished artists to be jealous of, I mean admire.

Some art is on such a high plain I can not even be jealous of it. I can only internalize the impact so as to take the miracle of it with me. The work of Francis Bacon does this to me. Apparently he was quite a scoundrel and despicable as a human being but I don’t care and I don’t need to know it and knowing it does not change my opinion of the work. The work stands on it its own like disembodied legs. How grand it would be to stand in the studio where he worked and marvel at the complete irreverence for the environment while the man vehicle was sprouting master pieces from amidst the chaos. Here is a great little video:

I’m inspired by the method of using damaged photographs and images as source material for portraits and ideas. I can see myself doing the same kind of thing using damaged printed material (because I have a hard time damaging an actual photograph even if its not a friend or family member). Of course, even if I were to employ the exact same methods used by Bacon or any other artist, the work would still turn out like my own, there is no getting away from one’s self. So, using a method developed by another artist is copying but its not copying the art itself. Its a learning device.

I’ll be leaving for my parents house in the morning so I must get some painting time in. NOw.

I’ve sketched so many tree fems that I just about have a forest!

Bird not to be

Sunday, March 31st, 2013

I have had this root sitting on my dresser since last summer. I was going to turn it into a found object bird, but I noticed today its growing.

bird

bird growth

and these are acorn heads

acorns

Happy Easter 🙂

Puggie Buggie yarn bombed

Wednesday, February 20th, 2013

You are the Sky

Tuesday, January 29th, 2013

I subscribe to Eckhart Tolle TV which I love. Master Eckhart shares so much wisdom. His October monologue was very moving,” you are the Sky” and so a painting was manifest.

I still think there is some fussing to do…

January 1, 2013

Tuesday, January 1st, 2013

I stayed home as is tradition and actually, I was in bed at 8:00 p.m. Generally I rise around 5:00 a.m. which partially explains why I hit the sack so early but the real explanation I think, is its one of those things that happens when one gets up in years. (UP in years sounds so much better than old, much like chubby sounds better than fat). Still my son text’d me at midnight which I thought very sweet and I text’d him back when I got up at 6:00 this morn. I went and took care of the dogs and when I returned home I hit the couch, watched some news and fell back asleep. finally I decided to get off the couch and get the new year started. 😀

The more I write 2013 the more I will remember to write 2013! (instead of 2012).

Featured on the table a “Lemon Drop martini” made from limoncello which is so yummmmmmmmm, (a Christmas gift from my hub).

I have no resolutions to make/break this year, but I will say, I have it in me to make more art and get my website back up and functioning. Other than that, I am just taking it one day at a time.

If you are reading here you are most likely an artist of some persuasion and I wish you a creative, artistic, abundant new year!

peace

About a Pug

Monday, July 30th, 2012

Before I met my husband I was working in the Bay area as an apartment complex manager. When tenants moved out I was required to inspect the apartment for damage and cleanness. One time, while I was inspecting an apartment the lady had a friend helping her with the last minute details and the friend had a friend with her. It was a baby pug. I could not believe my eyes, I had never seen a baby pug, they kind of look like aliens with their big heads and pop eyes!
balthazarbaby

I just about died from the cuteness and vowed that if I ever got out of my apartment living I would get a pug. Fast forward five years, I met my Jerry and we got married and got a house and within a month we had the pugster, my Balthazar. At that time my husband was working very long hours and often over seas and out of town and all I had was Balthazar so of course, I doted on him like a child. Dressing him up and taking him with me every where. After a few months we decided that he really needed a play mate since he had so much energy and that was when we decided to get Sassafras, long for Sassy since she was such a spirited little girl when we picked her up in the parking lot at the local Safeway. I literally squealed when I saw her she was soooo tiny sitting on the pavement in that parking lot that I almost didn’t see her at all! Oh she was such a cutie pie and we took her home to Balthazar and he cried he was so excited! he did not know what to make of her, she was so tiny next to him. What a fun moment that was. They have been together ever since.

Two of my fur children
I remember when he was a tiny pup I would carry him in a little purse like carrier with his head popped out at one end. I took him like this when we went to the SFMOMA, he was asleep and I guess they thought he was a stuffed animal because they let me through with him and I got up to the third level before one of the guards realized I had an animal with me. HA!balto

Shortly after acquiring him I quit the job I was working at as an after school program director because they would not let me bring him to work. I had been told prior that I would be able to have him so I was angry they reneged, and I am just not the type of dog owner who can leave a dog home by itself for 8 or 9 hours.

I use to call him “King Tut” because he had this big dog in a small body thing, he was quite the alpha male, so full of personality. When I would pick him and put him on my lap, he would promptly turn front sitting up on his hind legs like I was his person doing what I am suppose to be doing, holding and doting on him!

Of course he loved his walks and he loved his baths. Not so much the washing part but the drying part. he would roll around on the towels and stretch making the funniest I feel good noises and then in appreciation he would jump up at me with kisses, with his big oversized tongue that always hung outside his mouth cuz it didn’t fit!

He was a very emotional dog too, if he saw me crying or heard me yelling he would bark and cry out also. It was very touching.

He so adored getting in the pool and jacuzzi with us. If he were inside the house and he heard one of us in the pool swimming he would bark like crazy and stare out the window door pacing back and forth and he would not even be distracted by food or treats. If we were in the jacuzzi he would bark and cry till we took him in with us, and he would race across the thin ledge like a tight rope walker, we marveled at how fast he was and he did not fall down! When people were over they would get such a kick out of Balthazar jumping on my back for a piggy back ride in the shallow end of the pool, oh he was in heaven those days!
Swimmer pug

Every time he went out into the back yard he would stare at the pool. Even after he went blind. He would go right to the ledge and look down, he knew the water was there.

Balthazar

About five years ago he became diabetic and in less than a year he went blind. I will never forget the look on his face when I went to throw him a treat and he could not see it and I realized and he realized that he could not see it. I felt helpless and sick about it. But for about four years he could still see shadows and shapes and get around, he actually did quite well. But about 6 months ago the blindness increased severely and his world went completely dark. His demeanor and disposition changed dramatically. He became very insecure and wanted me around him constantly. If I left the house he would howl relentlessly, it was awful, and heart breaking. He would spend most of the day like a little bumper car, bumping into walls looking for me. It was stressful being needed so intensely and quite painful knowing that his quality of life had diminished even further. It has been a series of problems since as he continued to deteriorate and his liver became enlarged and he could not eat or hold down food or water. Today, we had to let him go, he was suffering and I really could not bear it. His last week at home was one of the worse weeks of my life. I had hoped for a miracle. But there was not a miracle in sight. You may think, he was just a dog, but I couldn’t have felt any worse were he a person. Love is love whether it be person or animal and I loved him so deeply and I miss him so much. It was such a relief to euthanize him because I know his body had turned on him completely. I was glad he would no longer have that ravaged little body and his beautiful spirit could be at blissful peace.

blindI am so grateful for the cherished memories, the 12 years of unconditional love and fun. What a blessing he was, making our every day so much richer and joyful.

balthazar
RIP my beloved Balthazar